by DaveLast October I got an e-mail about healing prayer on an upcoming Friday at this place I had never been to--called Tierra Nueva. I had recently gone through the chaos and dark pain of a divorce. It felt like my life was over. I received generous love from old and new friends and helpful counseling, but there was deeper healing needed that I was only partially aware of.
I waffled back and forth that week--feeling like I ought to go, but preferring to watch a World Series game with a friend. Then early Friday evening I sat down, still undecided, and read an interview with Stanley Hauerwas. The interviewer asks: "A lot of us seem to prefer living in anxiety to trusting God. How can we practice trusting God?"
Hauerwas answered, "What I try to do is put myself in positions where I don't have any alternative but to trust God."
Whoa. I set down the magazine, got in my car and drove down I-5 feeling drawn, called, magnetized to Tierra Nueva. I remember Chris playing guitar that night. We sang the song "more love, more power.” The Spirit cut deep into my core in the middle of singing. And I realized how much I had been holding back, holding onto. Tears came.
Later Tina prayed for me with compassionate boldness, moving me toward blessing my ex-wife and starting down the road of releasing her. And Tina prayed for God's presence and deep healing of my ragged wounds. I felt alive again. Resurrected.
Now that I have been going to Tierra Nueva more and more, I have discovered that they, as a way of life, take the plunge into risky trust and put themselves in places where they have no alternative but to trust God. And you know what? God shows up! That's attractive to me. That's real life. I want more and more. And I know there is much more yet to come! Thank you, Jesus.
